Love, life & everything's else in between, personal

Slamaat on your 6th birthday Mika’il

Six years. You would have been six years.

I thought time would have healed me abit and by now I’d be abit more stable when your birthday comes… I guess I was wrong. I think time has taught me to keep myself distracted, but on days like this, it’s impossible.

I try to celebrate you, in fact, I celebrate you daily. You have pushed me to be the woman with characteristics of the mother I would have wanted to be to you. Each time I’m In a situation, I think “what example would I be leaving if Mika’il were here”.

Precious child, you have made such an impact in my life. I really thank Allah that he chose me to carry you.

Flashbacks of the day that I lost you came flooding in from 01:05am when my sleep broke this morning.

As much as I trust Allah had different plans for you, I still question if you’d be here if only I had made different decisions or if only I stayed off my feet and rested as I should have.

But anyway, you would have been six today. Lol no guessing that I would have been way more excited than you. You would have also started big school. Gawsh, I don’t think they make phones big enough to house all the photos I’d take of you daily. I often wonder how it would have been; me coming home to help you with homework, teach you. You going to madressa and learning more about your religion. I often wonder what type of questions you’d be asking me.

I often wonder… I do that alot actually.

So on your special day. Know that mum and a whole lot of aunts and uncles, cousins, Junaid and Ma & PA are thinking of you. I know you’re in a much better place my son.

The love I have for you will never die. Till we meet again sweet child.

Slamaat on your sixth heavenly birthday.

Love and light always,

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Girl power, Love, life & everything's else in between, motivation and inspiration, personal

#QOTD #35

Keeping up with the lessons learned from fairytales and gaining a better understanding as to why I’m so drawn to one particular fairytale (Cinderella) more than the rest, here’s another quote I simply adore. 

The greatest risk any of us will take, is to be seen as who we are.

~ Cinderella 

The greatest and most rewarding risk I say.

I truelly believe that we are only free, once we don’t allow what people think of us, affect us.


In a world that demands you to think, feel, look and act in a certain way, it’s becoming more and more difficult to see somebody stay true to who they are. And when you do, it is just simply amazing. 

We all go through a phase where we lose sleep over what others may think or say about us. That phase where we will do or wear a certain thing just to fit in. If you’ve never been affected by this, lol kudos to you. But I can definitely relate.

Now though, I really couldn’t be bothered with what folk have to say because remaining true to my self and who I am will always take first presidence! 

I do whatever feels good within my soul, even if it doesn’t fit the norm or standards of society. I wear whatever feels good on the day, whether it’s tracks, a tee and slops or whether it’s the prettiest dress with the cutest of sandals. I brush my hair when I feel like and then other days I don’t bother. My make up will be on fleek some days and then on others, I leave the house make-upless ( not sure if that’s a word but it’s fitting). I do what I need to do for ME and never have I been more comfortable in my own skin. 
I also have been really insecure about my weight. It’s a struggle I’ve been battling out for years now. This still bothers me from time to time however, I’ve realized that if I can’t love myself the way I am now, how do I expect anybody else to love me the way that I am and so whilst losing weight to be healthier is still a thing to do, I’m learning to love myself the way that I currently am, curves, extra rolls and all!
It’s an amazing feeling, not being consumed by what other people think, say or feel when it comes to you. I reckon when and only when you’re comfortable and happy with yourself are you then able to be happy and comfortable and around and with others.

  1. Be who you are meant to be. 
  2. BeYOUtiful. 
  3. Be the original version of yourself and not a copy of somebody else. It’s worth loads more! 

You were put on this earth for a purpose, stay true to that purpose. For there will only ever be one you! 

❤️|💡and 🌈 from just an ordinary girl 

Go on with your exclusive self (: