My sister, her two kids and the many South African citizens abroad in China and this Corona virus.
We can downplay this all we want. But it is an epademic. Why would China suddenly build two hospitals in a matter of days if it wasn’t?
The deaths are real. The infection is real. The risk of infection is real. Death toll is now at 170. Infected cases are about 7000 plus and and suspected cases are about 12 000 plus. Numbers are multiplying daily.
I stay anxious. My parents are riddled with worry and stress. We are a family of faith and we do believe God is in control. But the human in us comes out to play and the stress and worry is us being human.
My dad is barely eating, sleeping or talking and stays glued to the news Channel. My mum, trying to be strong, panics the moment she’s unable to reach my sister and the kids.
The worry is real.
The heart sore thing about it all is that we have to deal alone. There is no support from our government at all. I would have expected that someone would reach out to people here and there and groups created to let us all know we’re in this together and to actually do something. If other governments are able to do it with the ban Impositions. It is very much possible. And if that’s not an option, atleast take accountability daily and touch base with our citizens abroad. It’s very much possible with social media.
Food is a concern. Yes supermarkets are open and have enough food. Getting there is the risk. There is one taxi that is dedicated and runs per community… This virus is airborne. So I will leave this here. You can figure out why people are wary of going.
The Corona virus is said to 10x worse than the SARS virus. Scientist believe it will only die down in May…
Be wary people. Take the necessary precautions from now.
Up that immune system and start sanatizing frequently. I wouldn’t want any one to feel the anxiety and worry that I and my family are experiencing and that my sister and the very many others abroad are.
I began writing this post Thursday Evening, after I won my annual star award. I finally have a moment to post it. If you remember, I posted my thoughts and emotions after I had won a quarterly star award. If you missed that post, click here.
After I had won my annual star award. I began to reflect and all thoughts lead to this post. For those who don’t know, a star award is part of a recognition programme to acknowledge staff within the business for the work that they do. It is the most prestigious award that one could win, within the Discovery organisation…i know right?!
With that said, here it goes 🤗
The wind down
Driving back to the hotel and my mind is on the phenomenal company I work for, the people who have impacted my journey and it’s honestly trying to comprehend that next year, I (an ordinary from Newlands East) will be going to THE Brazil.
I was so emotional, as was I when I found out that l had won a quarterly award. I kept replaying the moment I heard my name being announced and the phenomenal love and celebration I received from people I’d never have known, if it weren’t for this opportunity, my family and my friends. It’s been a remarkably rough year for me and I’m sure for many others, it got to a point where staying afloat was becoming more and more difficult. This award is a reminder of my warrior spirit and will continue to serve as my reminder when I feel I’m not capable or worthy.
When they called my name, my brain had to process whether they’d actually called it, I froze in dire disbelief and kept thinking “did I actually hear my name or was it my inner thoughts imagining how it would be if my name was actually called.” Reality set in when I got hugged left right and centre and then the things us women do when we can’t control our excitement began… Yes, I screamed and then cried.
I couldn’t think who to call first, it at one point felt like an asthma attack was coming on hahahaha #imaginethat
When the confiti fell and photos were taken, I felt an immense sense of gratitude to God for always just showing up and showing off at the times it’s needed.
As a side note, I’ve always been drawn to Brazil, their colourful culture and free spirited individuals. My name on mxit (do you guys remember that instant messaging app) was Ms Brazil and my mom would always refer to me as her Brazilian queen and then look at God…like he noted these things and said hey, when you need it the most, I will whip out this big break.
I felt gratitude towards the very many people that have taken a chance on me, who have said yes to me and an idea, those who said no to me, those who invested their time and knowledge in me, my trainers, simulations team leader, every team leader I’ve worked under, my colleagues who inspire me daily in one form or another, management for always leading from the front and my family and friends for always reminding me that I can do whatever I set my mind to do and who never allowed me to fail without trying my utmost best.
Working hard is one thing, but having people by your side to support and grow you is something else. That’s the organisation I work for and the people I’m surrounded by, all of whom Ive always been particular fond of.
Fast forward to the next morning. I’ve barely slept because I think I’m still in shock. I feel special, I feel like what I do honestly matters, I feel overjoyed because let’s be honest, I wouldn’t be able to afford this trip any time soon, on my own. I feel loved, by the many messages filtering through, the kind words and affirmations.
Seeing a company so dedicated to recognizing the work it’s people does and to this extent is just remarkable to witness. Again, to say that I am honored would be an understatement.
So do everything with love, work hard and trust that it always pays off. Acknowledge the people you think are worthy and just continue to grow in love, light, faith and knowledge. The world has one of everybody else, what it needs is you, so leave a piece of you in everything that you do.
To everyone who has played a role in my journey and took the time and effort to groom me, this isn’t just my award. It’s ours and I thank you.
Love and light always, for just an ordinary girl going to Brazil
It has been such a challenging few weeks. You know when sometimes you feel like you’re drowning and the more you want to try and work through things, the more you get overwhelmed because you just know know where to start? That’s been me.
Moving into a new role is challenging enough. I was more excited about this because I was up for the challenge. What I was not prepared for was that, plus my Mums unexpected health shock, all whilst assignments and exams prep is underway.
I sought to pint rest for motivational quotes and other motivational sites to help keep me afloat and the support I’ve received from colleagues, friends and family has been of a great help but the lack of support from the people we sometimes need it from the most just adds to the already overwhelming period.
I just feel like I need to be doing more but I just don’t have the mental capacity to do so right now. Ever felt that way?
I know these moments are meant to make us grow and groom us into better versions of ourselves and I’m always ready for the rough seas before reaching calmer waters. I just needed to vent.
Giving up is not in my DNA. So even the thought of progress serves like a ray of sunshine in what seems to be a very gloomy and never-ending day.
Some personal and honest thoughts and feelings from just an ordinary girl trying to do better.
In June this year we wrote up about the Rosefest announcement that multi-award winning artist Shekhinah dropped on us all.
The JHB show blasted off on 09 August 2019 and was such a huge success.
The Durban show is set for 12 October 2019 and Is celebration of the anniversary of the Rose Gold album.
Over the past few days, Shekhinah visited schools around Durban, her home town to pay homage. From the looks and sounds of things, she was warmly welcomed and energetically received. The Rose Fest is for everyone. You can legit bring your whole family.
Talks of candy-floss, food stalls, a live band and a fun fair are spreading through the airwaves and we are loving it. The only thing better than music at a fun fair, are selfies at the fun fair rocking rose gold tinted glasses!
Shekhinah’s aim is said to not only jive along to the music but to capture memories. And she’s creating a vibe for us to do just that. So grab your Coachella swag, get those tickets. And lets all be rosey!
I’m definitely ready to Suite up and prepared for a uniquely Different music experience. It’s definately going to be one for the books.
Stay updated and be sure to like and follow the Rosefest Facebook page, click here. Or, visit the Rosefest website
I occasionally write for a platform at work. And with all the chaos happening around us. It inspired this post. Take a read:
I find it ironic how, in the wake of women’s month, we wake up to news reports headlining the gruesome murders of kids, teens and adults; most of which are female. This blog post is not going to be a feminism escapade or a female rant at that. Instead, it is going to pay tribute to the very many, powerful and influential queens of the world. #queendom.
It is an affirmation for the queens and serves as a reminder to the kings, to appreciate every woman they encounter.
I am queen because I’ve overcome hurts and pain that was meant to break me. I turn pain into power!
I am a queen because God made me and because I know I can only do things with his will and permission and hey, I’m okay with that.
I’m a queen because when I do something, I do it with love and all things positive. I don’t do it based on condition or because I have to. If it’s well within my soul, it’s the purest and most sincere.
I am a queen because I treat people with honesty, love and respect, like the kings and queens that they are; Because what’s the use of identifying somebody as a king or queen but never treating them with the honour that they deserve…
I am a queen because I err. I am flaw-filled but I wear those flaws confidently because we were not born perfect, we were born to work towards being better than who we were yesterday.
I am a queen because I’m a warrior and not a worrier. Nothing can keep me down for too long. Call me my own knight in shining armour! I soldier on proudly in the constant wars that happen between the self and I, and those that continue around me. Forget justice, I am in the league of Hercules and Maximus Decimus Meridius
I am a queen because I choose to celebrate the best in people and not compete. You can never compare me to you. Our struggles are different and therefore our battles are different.
I am a queen because I fight for what’s right, irrespective of race, colour or creed so best believe, if you are coming for me, you better come correct.
I am a queen because I love to learn. I try different things to widen my perspective and self-growth and mastery is what I’m after.
And hell, I am a queen because I brush my hair some days and others I don’t, I listen to rap music one day and then jazz the next. I rock purple orange and green on some days and black and grey on others.
Point is, I’m a queen in my own right and my soul is royalty! Rest assured, you and yours are too.
Love, light and supreme delight: from just an ordinary queen!
I had to work extremely hard today to control the anger,to keep the memories from swallowing and drowning my heart. And I’m exhausted now.
Memories of the different encounters of abuse, the affairs, the loss of my son, the violence, the struggles of just being a true authentic human being and people often taking that for a weakness, the heartache… It all came flooding back. I know what happens when I allow it to wash me away to depressing shores and so I fight daily to keep afloat. Today I’m barely making it.
See, what people don’t understand is that when you go through something traumatic, it never goes away. We work hard daily to rise above it all and keep moving, to work at it, to restore faith and trust. Its an everyday job where leave is something utopic. Some days we’re successful and are euphoric and other days we struggle, barely keeping our faces above water.
Today was one of those days for me.
To the pretentious kind. I don’t have the energy to deal with you today, so stay at bay.
To the judges of the world, do me a favour and take 30 to just relook at your own life. I can almost bet the judgment you possess towards me will be making a 360 towards yourself.
To the perpetrators, come correct… Kind is somewhere in my DNA, just not at the forefront of my logic today… So preservation of the positivity in my optimism well is the main goal for now. Not your pride or your ego…that I generally nurture in hope of yourll doing and being better.
I still have a house to clean, a prayer to say and tons of assignments to do. Allah if ever I needed you, it’s today.
Truest feelings, from just an ordinary girl trying to stay afloat
Many South Africans “stood” in solidarity yesterday by wearing all black. This was a stand up against the brutal attacks on women and the xenophobic attacks that have escalated in past weeks.
I decided to stand with my fellow South Africans in, what I believe to be, a different way.
See, Maya Angelou once said that people will forget what you do for them but they will never forget how you make them feel… Or something along those lines. And I for one, agree with her.
So I set out on a task, which started out prematurely but ended in the most heartfelt, touching way.
Filling in the gaps
Towards the end of July 2019 I applied to be a simulations Team leader. It’s basically a team leader coach to new people entering the business, in their training period. I was successful. People have always been my passion and I love making people smile and just helping out in general. Not blowing my own horn, but just giving you an idea of why I was so excited when I was awarded this opportunity.
What was daunting is that the group I was selected to help out with, is a Learnership group. Yeap millenials who are mostly fresh out of high school…
I’m sure you can understand why this was a teeny weeny bit nerve wrecking!
Fast forward a month and a half, a couple of coaching sessions, hilarious and sometimes inappropriate comments/encounters and unforgettable moments… These guys and girls have literally changed my life and have each earned a place in my heart.
The final chapter.
The lasting impact
Friday, the 06th of September 2019. I woke up and dressed in navy blue. I honestly forgot about the whole wear black escapade. Don’t judge me, it was a really rough week, with late nights, early mornings, minimal sleep and still thoughts of spending the weekend buried in text books and having to finish 11 assignments. So go easy on me now.
With all of the chaos happening around us; the negativity, anger and darkness our country seems to be in, I wanted to create a positive hub in our training room. The aim was purely to lift our spirits.
The thinking behind this task was to encourage these young girls and guys to always show gratitude, to focus on the positive and to always seek the silver lining; to see hope in adversity.
The task of the day was for each of them to write one thing that they like best about themselves and then to go around the room and tell each of their training buddies one thing that they like about them.
No lie, it started out funny. But believe me when I say that by the time we were done, it was one of the most fulfilling, heartfelt, sincere and memorable moments I’ve ever witnessed. I saw young kings show vulnerabilty and gratitude towards their fellow kings and watched them pour their inner most feelings out to the fellow queens in our training group. I saw young queens commend and speak life into their fellow queens and watched them uplift our young kings.
It was a beautiful and inspiring encounter. Ego, pride, shade, conspiracy, negativity, fakenicity (its a word, don’t ask further) had no place in that room. It didn’t exist. And boy was that refreshing.
The whole task was so authentic that I woke up inspired to write this post.
My Learnership guys have given me hope. Hope in our future. Hope in our young men and women. They aren’t just delinquent, entitled millenials. They are young, bright, sincere, real, talented and respectful beings.
I am super blessed to have encountered each and every one of them.
Team AMG. You guys rock awesome!
Love, light and cool vibes only… From just an ordinary simulations team leader.