From the first day I walked inside the KZN DH (my employer) offices, I knew I wanted to do great things.
My journey at DH was the start of a new Era for me. Leaving behind a toxic marriage, getting over the death of my son, and two grans; I knew I needed to dust myself off and steer this ship into positive, calmer waters. DH was the begining of that journey.
I’ve worked my behind off, trying to better myself both personally and in my career. And when I heard what a star award was and everything you needed to exude and possess to be nominated or even to win one, I knew I wanted to hold the title of this award. Not for the title itself, but to prove to myself that I am worthy and I possess all the right qualities to keep myself ahead and afloat.
Random info bits
Everyone who knows me, knows that 2013/14 were the toughest years of my life.
What people don’t know is that 2018/19 were even tougher.
Battling health issues, an array personal soul-eating and positive sucking battles, being a student whilst juggling work and personal projects, I found myself working triple time just to stay afloat. This is how I’ve been feeling.
Fighting battles that challenged my spirit, my faith, my character, my identity and almost surrending.
It’s been rough and tough. I’ve never been challenged this much. But I know that you only grow when you’re out of your comfort zone.
Friday, 07 June 2019, I went to get some rest to prep myself for a night of studying. I get a phone call telling me that I’ve won a quarterly Star award. I was in shock. Literally. All I remember was thanking the management team and then crying when I put the phone down.
There were other times I’d deem myself “on top of my game” or “worthy” but of late I’ve been feeling burnt out. Drowning almost. Never in a 1000 Years did I expect that I’d be chosen to win at this point. I mean I knew I’ve been working and working hard. But that’s never been an option; not working hard. I guess with all the negative stuff thats been around me, it felt too good to be true. Like this was my break almost.
What the award means to me
This award is confirmation to myself that I still have so much more fight, so much more passion, so much more to give. It’s God’s way of telling me I am enough and that the devil cannot and will not steal my joy. It’s the universes way of telling me to keep my head up and keep going because I am one of its brightest stars and my shine has not been dulled. It’s my employers way of telling me that my efforts are not unnoticed.
I’ve never ran from adversity. It’s not in my DNA to. Even when I don’t know it, my body’s natural instinct is to gear up and fight my best fight. I may have been down temporary, but this girl is coming back with a vegence.
Thank you to all my team leaders. From my extended hour team to where I’m currently at as a client relationship manager. I could never have gotten this far with out you guys. To my dearest work friends that have now become my family, thank you for always encouraging me and pushing me. To the management team thank you for leading by example and paving the way for us. Thank you for believing in me. For the person who nominated me, thank you for deeming me worthy of your time and of this award. I am forever grateful. To my family and my husband, thank you for never letting me stay down, for never allowing me to throw my own pity party, for always encouraging me. And then last but but least, shukr Allah, for listening to me and putting me through trials and tribulations to teach me the lessons I needed to be taught. Thank you for never giving up on me. I am forever grateful.
Love and light always, from just an ordinary quarterly star award winner ❤️