2018, The wake
2018 has left me feeling all sorts of emo.
Whilst there have been some very exciting milestones that occurred, it has been THE most stressful year by far… Check my blogging activity and you’ll agree.
Throughout everything that has happend, I almost lost myself. I allowed situations to define me. I allowed the built up frustration and anger to poison my thoughts. Heck I was almost even ready to stoop down to levels I swore I’d never go too.
Two hospital admissions, a court order and several encounters later… The drama still persisted. But something had to give and it gave indeed.
Whilst I won’t go into detail about the drama or even the betrayal. I would just like to touch base on something that became so apparent and is by far my biggest gripe with 2018.
Woman bashing…by women.
I think I was so alarmed that such women existed that I started questioning whether I was sane. I couldn’t and still find it hard to believe that there are women out here who literally spend time, lots of it, planning to destroy or make someone’s life a misery. Like do these people not fear God. Have they never felt peace and true happiness?
I mean how do you hate someone you’ve never met? How do you use someone’s past painful experiences to intentionally try to inflict more pain. How do you use everything in your way to purposely break another women’s spirit. If I was some weakling I’d either be in jail or a mad house.
This is what is wrong with the world first before the Trumps or Zumas. It’s us women. We hate it when its done to us but it’s justifiable to do it to someone else. We’d never accept if it were done to our daughters, sisters or besties but we encourage our sons to do it to their wives or friends to do it to someone else. We speak about being Godfearing but we ignore God’s messages.
It became so clear that women are so quick to judge fellow women but when we or one of our friends are in the same boat, we get enraged.
Our sons see this, and think it’s okay to do it because mom, sister or cousin does it. Our daughters see this and grow up thinking it’s okay to women bash.
We as women set ourselves up for failure. It’s pathetic. It’s shameful. It’s common and It’s sad. We birth nations. It’s time we stop focusing on the wrongs of others; men, fellow women etc. and start fixing ourself.
Heck it’s 2019. Peace and happiness should be the order of this year. Drama and all things negative are to be left in the past.
My prayer for every women reading this and for those who are guilty of this behavior is that you heal, that God allows you peace and true joy.
I pray that we as women become so busy with fixing ourselves that we have no time to tear each other down. I pray that God keeps us busy and focused on our own families and goals so that the devil doesn’t have a chance to toy with us. I pray for change, for all of us. Aaameeen.
What other people think of me is none of my business.
Don’t lose yourself and remeber a queen never leaves her throne to address peasants throwing stones.
Love and light always, feelings of just an ordinary girl
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